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“What lies behind you and what lies in front of you, pales in comparison to what lies inside of you.” Ralph Waldo Emerson
Christmas day 2019 during a deluge of rain I fell on my face hitting a curb. Placing myself in Santa Barbra on State street entirely under water.
Running out of The Arlington Theater proved to be a bad idea. I am still banged up, on the mend healing from my rain frolic gone wrong. I was lucky, no hospital for me. I went to bed for three days and iced my face. My injuries are mending in living -colors such as blue, black, yellow, green, and if pain would be a color, I have that one as well.
Looking through a swollen eye into the new decade. Glancing at the rear-view window on the past year is true 20-20 vision. Saying goodbye to a blessed year.
Resolutions should be self-encouragement. Allowing resolutions to be obtainable and reasonable. Knowing that anything that one who is seeking resolution albeit money, weight, work out, love, job. The relationship one has with any of those things, can direct where the change needs to take place. For example, the relationship I have with money probably started at age four. I need to heal that relationship to be strong and proactive in my steps to change.
With my dreams, my forever resolutions, I try to step towards them a bit day to day. I don’t beat myself up if my goals are not met, even though right now I look very beat up. If I lay down my dream for a week that is alright as well. The process towards goals is not always a straight line.
Life and moments can be hard enough. Finding joy and gratitude helps to push me into the right direction.
I have a dream. I am guessing many of us have dreams. My dream is to see my second book to be published. “A House for Every Purpose, My Journey from Pillow to Pillow”. A story of a woman who is experiencing an identity crisis going through empty nesting and leaving her home of thirty years. It is a sequel to “A Man for Every Purpose, My Naked Journey Searching for Love” A relatable story if you’ve ever been in love, or searching through dating and divorce.
I will roar into the twenties with tenacity, promise, possibility, potential. Why not? I cannot lose for trying. Head up shoulders back here I come, here I am. If I fail, I fail trying!
My Mantra: “The rear view proves insightful. What lies ahead is wide open”