HOW THE START OF 2025 ALMOST WRECKED ME!?

“But that’s just the trouble with me. I give myself very good advice, but I very seldom follow it.” Alice in Wonderland, Lewis Carrol

It’s time for a New Year’s resolution, but not for me. There is too much sorrow in 2024: three deaths and other losses, struggling through changes I can not control.

Oh, that’s right, life has shown up, and along with it, death and birth, life and loss have been packed. I’m feeling so very human right now.

I broke down, completely and utterly sick, with the Sad Flu that took me down for 24 hours. Inside my personal New Year crises, I made it to the bathroom and back. Getting sick from both ends is wretched on body and soul. Woefully floating in and out of sleep, torn up with too much pain, everything hurt, emotional and physical; it had me; it held my pain, and we (as in pain and I) were going through it, like it or not. What life handed me was all too much, and my body reflected the fact that my process of grief and personal boundaries needed some serious work.

I know the drill; I’ve lived it and written about it in my book, but as my life goes, “I have very excellent advice but very seldom follow it,” as loosely quoted from Alice in Wonderland. But I sit in the same mess I had been in before, suffering in torment.
It is not what happens to us but how we meet, face, feel, and accept it. Moving on from a hard place, we all know what that is like, and we all have our system of getting to the other side. It can be a matter of choosing happiness and finding the positive; it’s there.

However, I did not face yesterday or the day before with gold stars, but today is today. My body woke up and let me know the pain was over. My body fought when I did not have the courage, telling me it was time we have more to do. Relishing in my wellness, I will nourish myself, move my body, and share how I hit bottom.

I will not burden myself with New Year’s Resolutions; that is just silly nonsense; why get grandiose because it is a new year? I say take it daily to meet oneself in grace and positive recognition. I will continue with gratitude and know that the possibilities in life are limitless if I know them and believe in them; there are no limits, just redirection and pushing forward. It is not a straight path, and failure is undoubtedly a part of the journey. Within those failed moments are lessons if …I can sit still long enough to study them and look at myself objectively, with grace and self-compassion. If that sounds like a big ticket, it is. But the size of worthiness is worth the price. “Worthy” by Jamie Kern Lima is an excellent book!

Gratitude can turn around most negative thought patterns; it is simply the power of thought. Wayne Dyer wrote a book about it, “Chang Your Thoughts, Change Your Life.” YES, to reading.
I suppose, if one had to have a resolution, it should be READING! If you embrace reading, buy my book. It is cheeky, about dating, love, and relationship mishaps; it’s all there. “A Man for Every Purpose, My Naked Journey Searching for Love” is a doozy!